reached home and got scoldings from mum cause im tryin to get some comments about something from her. and its like scold and scold. non stop. even when my dad came home she complained to my dad about how disobedient i was. she ruined my mood. im not angry. im just disappointed. i thought she understands me. in fact, i was wrong. and not only this. that sms ruined my day too. all i got was disappointment. -sighs.

sis went to my aunt's place for stayover. so i suppose ill be the one tolerating the nonsenses. i just hope things will get better. in fact, it'll never will.

went to aunt's place. then in the evening, yuxuan, xinni, yuhan, sis and me took bus to causeway point. went to watch POLAR EXPRESS! its SUPER SUPER NICE. i was concentrating on the movie.. its like addictive. mwahahhaas. really! =D oh yes. we lil kids spent 26 bucks on popcorns, drinks etc. and aunt was like commenting how 'great' we were. =|

feeling really tired. might get a fever soon due to the injection. bo li xie on teevee now. xP i love that lil girl. shes sooo cuteee! omg if im a man, ill marry her. ;P super cute. never met such a cute girl before. honest! heh.

dad drove us to church then met up with my aunt's family. uncle drove us to suntec. went to look at the family festival exhibition. headed to great winter world. saw ms yap there! (: hehs. shes the most beautiful teacher in my ex-school man. hmm. bought coat etc. cost around 320$. then went to have dinner. i ate korean food! and silly me. i asked something stupid to that man. 'the fish is big or small ah'. LOL. and he was speechless! my mum was embarrassed. =| i think i embarrassed myself in front of the people. tsk. then walked into daniel yam boutique. tried on many evening gowns. okay something funny happened which made my cousin and sis laughed at me. yuhan stood outside so he didnt know what was happening. in the end. bought a bright pink evening gown and a necklace. i love the necklace more than the evening gown i tell you! the lady also bth me. she said, 'your necklace important or your evening gown important'. ;x mwahaha. altogther cost about 134$. left my slippers. tomorrow's taking injection. i hate needles! cause' im leaving for harbin from 12-20th dec. you know what! the highest -5 degree. the lowest -28. hell. how am i gonna survive there. want to survive take injection. grrrs. whats this! oh wells. before i sleep. i wanna say..

i love my kor! <3

alrights. i know you feel like strangling me. =D

hm. today. woke up at o93o. sherm gave me a morning call. cause' i chatted with him till 1+ in the morning so i need someone to wake me up as im meeting jessica for haircut. baby's leaving for aussie ): anyways. im waiting for him to be back telling me the long story. hehehes. ill always be there listening to what you wanna say k. cause honestly. without your presence, i really would have broken down. it was you who was there for me even when im in my most defeatist mood. you was without fail there for me every step of the way. someone that i could unload my anger, my sorrows, my burden. so yupps. i'll always be there too. like what i said. i wont be ungrateful. ((: did i give you a sweet morning? i hope i did. lols. i will miss you for sure.. and i love you lots lots! haha alrights. it seems like im dedicating this entry to you. booohoooo. menses blood! ;X

gonna go out soon. theres a surprise birthday party going on. yays im meeting my ex-seniors again. oh yes. i had a haircut; a new hairstyle. the hairstylist was an expert. i was stunned by the way he cut my hair. LOL. my sister and dad said it looked as if i didnt cut at all. but when i tied it up, it looked like im having hair loss. booo. shall let my seniors and mum to comment. oh yahh. seng leaving for aussie soon too. the same destination as sherm. i wanna go there too ): i love that place. if i had a chance, i would migrate there. serious! -beams.

as for today. headed to jurong jc early in the morning. outside the gate saw soonsiong and kelvin. so we went in together. IN THE ROOM! wahahhaa. we took a long long time to decide. i dared not click 'submit'. LOL. was pretty indecisive lah. and i heard some BAD stuffs. this world involves bribery. tsk. money money. everything is about money. =| in the end. i chose AC SCI as my first choice, SA SCI as second, AC ARTS as third, SA ARTS as fourth and lastly, JJ SCI as my fifth. the rest i left blanks. honestly, i have no confidence at all. i wanted SA but it's moving to potong pasir. whats more.. its 9 points now. compared with my 12 points, it seems a world apart. ayee -prays. mum was thinking if i would change my mind, going poly. honest. i had such thoughts before. but keep in mind. i have a promise to fulfil. and mum was aware why i chose jc, partly because of my dad and my late cousin. i just dont want to disappoint them. oh wells. i just have to pray hard that i can get into my first choice. yeah.. xP

went home and slacked. brought my sis out for lunch and fetch her to school while i headed to je to meet up jessica, lizhen, brandon and lianzhen. they went to find job so i tagged along. headed to IMM after that. then went back je and took train to town to meet up zhenguang, jason, lianhong, weisiong, ackley, randy, alwin and guansoon. yeahh as usual, im the only girl. so we went to search for graduation night's clothings. i tried on 5 evening gowns while some of the guys were at G2000 trying on clothes. guansoon was there accompanying me giving me comments on my evening gowns. in the end. i decided to bring my mum here to give me comments. cause we were confused. dont know which is nice. and it costs more than 100. excluding the necklace and the shoes. graduation night's next friday. and it seemed like im the only one who havent bought a dress. =| buying hp soon. weee. wells. discussed with hong ian about three month jc through sms. sueping smsed me about it too. hhahaa. we just hope we wont regret. (:

then jinhong kor called and asked us go down je play pool. so we headed back. alwin didnt come with us cause he wanna rest for tmr's bball training. hmms. took piccs. shall wait for jason to upload it yeah. then guansoon wanted a pic of mine so he took quite a lot of my pics. =/ ohmiegawd. self-obsession. hahahaa. then took a cab back home. that uncle chatted with me about jc. he said AC confirm can go university. lols. i remember that sunday when i was working, the customers also supported me on entering ac. ayee. just hope can get in. oh yes. forgot to mention its zhenguang's birthday! wee. bought him a present. i simply owe him too much. and jie's back! woohoooo. i missed her. wanna fetch her but jiefu has done the job. so i shant see the mushy mushy side aye? xP okay. the pics are uploaded. its under galleria* 24 11 o4. (:

i realised ac is beyond my reach. should i really consider sa again.? and jj. its like.. i dont wanna. or should i go for SIM like what mr tan and reyner said.? go to SIM and get a degree. but it costs 21k for three years, including bachelor degree. aye tmr choosing the first three months. i think i should discuss with my parents about the private school if i dont want jjc and poly. i really wanted ac. but its less than 10. ):

tmr jie coming back! but i dont know what time is her flight. theres some flights from japan tmr. wanna go and fetch her. aye. i dont think she brings her hp with her. so i guess i shall wait for her to online. jie is my everything. you cant understand how much she meant to me. <3

feeling lethargic. tmr going to find job again. think im going to the jamming studio. jiting said no vacancy alr. but not very sure. ayee music! mwahaaha. i feel like teaching piano. quick money. i need the money thou. so its like. i better keep finding. oh yes. im designing new layout. i'll re-do the tagging soon. i know its kinda screwed up. heh.

AHHAHAHA. MY OS HAS ENDED! YAY ITS OVER! ITS OVER! its a relieve. yes it is. and its like.. i cant imagine the torture is over. moohahhaa. okay im crazy. oh wells. havent been online fer days alr. shall update aye.?

after my chemistry paper. rushed back home and bathed. rushed out of the house once my dad came home. headed to town and met up with zhenguang, lianhong, jason, jiting, jinhong and dawn. heard that they saw willie. aye willie! should have met you! (: then we walked around. bought a burger from cine. headed to heeren after that. bought churos! yupps! yum. then met up with julye, joyce and their mum. and julye, joyce joined us while their mum went shopping herself. we went to eat chicken rice at somewhere near cine. then its about to rain. so jason and i quickly finished our food. gosh. i spent 10 bucks on food in just one night! hmms. went back cine cause its raining. walked around. met up with another girl named joyce. my ex dasao. =x pretty girl. hehes. so we stoned. and headed back at eleven. reached home at twelve plus. lianhong accompanied me all the way. (: so sweet of him. we chatted. and my family waiting fer me. worried. hahas. then dad bought satay fer me.

then today. went to jurong point to find jieying. my dear! =D hahas. cus i was told she working at some herbal tea shop. and i was searching high and low. in the end it was liberty supermarket -.- then went tea-time with ying at banquet. after that ying went back to work while i met up with lizhen. bought perfume fer friend's birthday.then lianhong came. we went arcade and i played para. lianhong kept bugging me to watch the shuttle with him. then i agreed -.-" and during the show. i was scared to death. i screamed once k. okay im weak. and i hid beside him. =x cus its damn scary until. i no guts x= okay u can imagine my reaction during the show. lols. then after the show, lianhong accompanied me back home. (: hahas. i smacked him in front of my neighbours. hoho. i think im a bad girl in their eyes alr. wahahaha. anyways. im back online! aww. i missed so many people. but jie not around. she went japan. jiee. i missed you most. ):

im so upset with myself. aye. i confided in my mum once i got home today. it took me quite a long time to get over it. im still not ok right now but wells. i have to anyways. hmms. left chemistry papers. one more day to go and im free, out of my secondary school life. and it was then everything screwed up. all my plans have to re-plan. tmr's dinner celebration cancelled. saturday outing cancelled. tuesday outing with darling cancelled. ahhh. theres celebration with my class on tuesday at seoul. yes fausta tan will be there! ((: now finding someone to go out with me tmr night. saturday.. maybe i shall find ying dear! hehes. xP ying! see this faster confirm with me. i miss you a lot!

im going overseas in dec. i didnt want to but mum needs me to accompany her. im close to my mum and my dad. dad will be in singapore. but its like.. no choice. i dont want to leave my dad alone here. neither i want to let my mum be alone there. =| she pleaded so i agreed. haha. i dont know what im going to do there cause i've been to that place. taking pics? i guess. haha. i will. im going to buy new hp before my graduation night, chalet and overseas trip! yay! but yah.. i need to concentrate on my studies now. i cant wait for the dinner celebration on friday! xP

shan --* its some work at jamming studio bah. i havent go and see. after exams then go check out. (:

jingyi --* not rich la. its just she said money cannot keep for long. fer some happiness? =/

mummy bought sis mp3 player and 2 new music cds. the mp3 player very chio. lol. jasmine has her new game boy and she bought a lot of new stuffs lately. im not jealous. im getting a new hp soon. k700i. which i aim fer more than two months already. and im interested in the jamming studio job. mum finally agreed letting me to work. as long as its music i guess. its time for me to earn some money. xP

oh. selamat hari raya! love.

im thinking of some decisions. should i just continue to be stressed and be a good girl study my geography, or anyhow study my geography and prepare to go poly.

had chemistry remedial in the noon. then went back home. walking on the pathway back and realised theres a man far behind from me. nothing to describe actually. but later, he managed to catch up with me. and he stood right beside me, asking me if he could know me. i was stunned, frightened. i've been living in this block for six years and i've never came across him before. he's a total stranger please. if he's someone im familiar with, i dont mind making friends. but you know the way he talked to me, its scary. are you going home? whats your name? and all. and emily came to my rescue. its good to have a friend who lives in the same block as you. so she accompanied me up. i couldnt even hold my keys properly. you bet how frightened i was. i dropped my keys when i tried to unlock the door. i was struggling. for goodness. i didnt know im so weak. i thought of someone else at that moment. but it was useless. aye im scared. -nodds. most people know my area is like scary. hell. and if this guy reading this. or whoever, whoever is a guy, you gonna scare the girl like this if you do the same as what this guy did to me. fer goodness. and screw. i intended to study once i reached home. now. he ruined my plan.

i've been out of sorts lately. someone save me. -shruggs. i need someone to be there. im feeling empty at times. and started thinking of the past. yes he he he. haunting me. seriously. im having a feeling that im gonna break my friends' heart again. i know i shouldnt go back to the past, my past. sometimes i couldnt control myself. im sorry. i just dont know how i should feel.

after mie geo paper, saw chengbo when im boarding the bus. hahas and he's alighting. guess he didnt see me. he's still the same; no change. haha. then went out and saw apple. (: headed to bugis with zhen at noon. hmm. we had our lunch first and walked around, looking fer clothes. i still havent find my graduation night's clothings ): oh wells.. took neos. the first one sucks just because we choose the wrong pictures. we mistook the instructions and screw! nice pics were gone. then zhen suggested we took again cause she dont want to waste. so we took again. ayee pity. =\ then walked to the temple. prayed and walked around. went to eat mango ice! hahaas. its delicious! yummy! but it costs $6.50 just for a bowl. after that we just walked around.. shopping! mwahahaha. left in the evening. chatted some stuffs in the train too. mwahaha. do you think i should fall in love again? im yet to find someone who truly loves me. love.. -shruggs.

while waiting fer the bus home. saw eileen! it has been a long time since i last met her. <3 then melody sms-ed me so once i reached home i chatted with her online to discuss a deal. im the dealer! lols! ((: then nyit shen told me he saw us at bugis. this dumbo! never came to say hi. -bites. now going fer my teevee. just an update! smuacck! love. (:

i know when im crying my shadow will be there.

went to watch Shark Tale at 9 plus with jinhong, jason, jiting, zhenguang and lianhong. my dad was like, 'during Os still movie ah'. LOLS. but my mum and dad didnt stop me from doing so. xP actually i was reluctant to go but i just feel that i should take a break, go fer a movie. the show was hilarious. not really nice thou but its just funny. reached home at 11.30pm and felt really tired so went to bed. hm. got to know someone new today - theodore. special name. haha. oh yes. daddy has been accompanying me fer five days. he took leave fer the sake of my Os. aww i love you dad! smuackks. and wanna tell darrick not to be angry with teachers and stay happy. ;x hhaas. went fer breakfast with him on monday. thats the only free time i suppose. oh wells..

im missing you. and i love you. <3